Calming down...(Entry for March 3, 2009)
Right now...instead of feeling angry I will choose to let it go.
At this moment...I look behind me and observe the frustration I've been feeling for the last hour ~ I acknowledge it was there and now I'm making the choice to move forward.
Right now I am breathing ~ in and out s l o w l y . . .allowing my lungs to expand while my mouth relaxes I inhale through my nostrils....even more s l o w l y I... e x h a l e through my nostrils and draw my belly toward my spine.
~calming down now...relaxing neck and shoulders now...frustration gone now.
Transformed? Just a subtle shift of awareness ~ a simple choice....oHHHoh..but I DO have to keep reminding myself...the moment comes when my mind wants to wander back to that anger and my chest tightens-up and my jaw starts to become tense...
but there is the breath.....and I come back now to center, and I dance this dance until the next distraction comes...
dance card full...
Staying focused on my breath keeps me focused on the moment - seeking clarity ~ finding deep pleasure and deep pain (both sides of the same coin) in each moment ~ each moment is fading away ~ can't grasp either pain nor joy too tightly....must find the center for stillness
so I breathe...
and I keep trying ~